Tony

HMMM...well paid car insurance. it was somewhere $1400 or $1500. turned in Washington State Patrol application. have appointment for another tattoo on july 1st. jeep is finally fixed up, runs nice. other than that nothing really.

so got to see jim, it was awesome. it's amazing of what 6 weeks in the military can do to a person, he still has his personality but manners, attitude, and every thing is a total 180. but it was a good time other than the fucking plane rides but thats another story.

thats right you fucking wankers!!!! yepee ka yea mother fucker!!! going to Texas tomorrow morning with Cristin to go see Jim and meeting up with his mom and brother. it's going to be fucking awesome. now make like a tree and get the fuck outta here!! ya bleedin bastards. Wahahahahaha!!!

So haven't posted in a while so I'd thought to do it tonight. 2 weeks I fly down to Texas with Jim's girlfriend to see him graduate Basic. I'm so stoked. Some days it gets to me other days it doesn't. He's been my best friend for what...9, 10 YEARS!!!! and now when im bored i think oh i'll hang out with jim, but nope he's not here. but i'll see him again. on that note, going to Warp Tour on july 13-15, then going camping the first week in august, 21st birthday on aug. 23rd, after that going to Def Leopard/Journey with Rob Roth august 31st, HELLO beer garden. but its expensive. and maybe a trip to the beach to play in the sand with the jeep. Until next time.

So yeah Go-Kart racin was a blast i actually i had a fucking awesome time except when jim tried to passed me. i took the inside turn and difted right into a fucking pillar. it hurt but i shook it off and jim still wasn't able to pass. i'll try to get him the next time we decide to go, that was by far the best party bash yet in my opinion.

Why I decided to title it that I dont know. It's been a weird week been really depressed but hangin in there. Just this past week I spent a little over $900 FUCKING DOLLARS to get my JEEP fixed cuz the FUCKER I bought it said he did NO engine work to it. Fucking Dumb ASS, you have to do some work to vechiles in order to keep them running. It's like the jeep is breaking before I get a chance to break it. But I got every thing taken care on it so it runs nice a smooth. The best day of the week was when my sweet friend Jessica called me. I miss her so much since she moved away. Of course now I really am considering moving down south. At least that way I wont be fuckin ridiculed by everyone. Really the only thing that keeps me going is to see her again. Am I crazy? maybe. Suicidal? Fuck NO!!! It's not my style. I dont know what to do anymore. im tired of this place. I fucking hate staying in one place as long as I've been here. maybe i'll feel better in a few days. I'll give jess a call explain whats on my mind, she always makes me feel better.

_DO SVIDANYA

OH YEAH!!!! So a couples of days ago I had an idea for the summer, to take a fuckin road trip. I talked to my friend Damon about it, he said he was in. So this summer we are going to cruise the States. FUCK YEAH!!!!!

Guess what, some of you already know but I bought a new vechile. Its a 97' black Jeep Wrangler Sahara its sweet!!! with its 4 in. lift and the tires. and then there's the sound system it kicks ass. Now I just have to get my 87' Nissan cleaned up and ready to sell. But I'm so happy I got a Jeep. HOOAH!!!!

Im still alive.......

Hmmm not much to say really except Motley Crue concert on Saturday *Alright!!! Thats going to be a blast. I got to remember to get a t-shirt for one of my managers. Other things #1, once Brad (Dj's dad) gets the title for the bird from the other guy I'll finally have my FireBird. Insurance is going to kill me, oh well. My birthday is on the 23rd I have no idea what to do, last year I ended up working on my b-day. Anyone have any ideas???

Other Things #2 Picked up Cassy at the *Corner of the street round 1:30 in the morning to get food for her, Pam, and Ashely. I'm glad to see her smile, she seems alot happier now.

So yeah there I was...sitting in my room when all of a sudden Jim messaged me. He had a mission for me. Objective: locate and transport his binder full of his bank stuff and rendezvous at his office. so i jump in my truck and drive off to his house, looked around and found the binder. Next: take it to jim before 5:30 pm, its now 5:05. And he's in lacey, well again i jumped in the truck flew down the road and raced towards lacey only to be stopped in traffic and red lights because i turned off the street to soon. agrhhh!!! traffic bites!!!! hahaha anyways got there a few minutes too late bank closed. oh well. im hungry lets go to taco bell i said to jim. so we got some food there then headed towards Jack to see Jim's girlfriend. got there said hello all they're lovey dovey stuff, then to our surprise pam, cassy, and ashely show up, talked with them for a while. or actually talked with pam and ashely. cassy i guess probably felt uneasy towards me which is understandable. i mean, to see someone you REALLY like but cant do nothing about *inner thought=DAMN!! i can see from her point of view it would hurt alot. i've been thinking on the way home...(so did she really like me to the point that its even hard just to talk to them now) if it was that i never knew i could impact someone's life like that. but all thats needed is time. when she feels comfortable to talk to me again i'll be listening. and i'll always be there for her. i guess thats all for now!!!!! i want to say more but not sure what to say....oh i'll figure it out. Later!!

To Everyone:

Subject title explains it all....I hate it sooooooo much now, more than ever. Trying to close so that I can relax and go home, then....BAM!!!!!! "Fuck" We get hit with drive-thru from 9-close...Im behind on my cleaning and now the kitchen looks like shit again. I dont even get to see my friends that often anymore, now its for like once in a blue moon; i mean, hangin with cassy the other day was the best day i hade in a long time other then seein her, pam, chris and carter that one day. well in the morning im looking for a new job.


To Cassandra:

I understand what you mean. I too wish things were different. Remember this, I will ALWAYS be your friend and AlWAYS be there for you if and when you need me. I hate to think of you to be sad, so please stay happy and smile. one day it may work out. If you want to talk you got my number and I the same so keep in touch. Keep yourself happy.

-Tony

Last night was fun, ran over to Dad's place (Jim's dad) to pick up a table for his mom and turn out that she was suppose to give us stuff to give to him. She didn't so no table, well at least i got free gas money. woot!! cuz im broke till friday. anyways after i dropped Jim back off cuz he had a date with his girlfriend, i got a hold of chris to find out what all was going on. chris, pam, cass, carter, and a few other ppl were at the mall, so dispite being on a 1/4 tank of gas i made it up there. waited for them to come out of the mall, out of no where cassy comes running up and jumps on me(guess she was happy to see me). then we went to a store to get food walked around there for a bit, next headed over to the big fountain walked around. cassy kept trying to knock me to the ground (haha it was cute). on the way home she rode with me, held hands except when i had to shift gears. it was nice and calming. i knew what chris and pam were thinking but all that's needed is time, i dont want to rush into anything yet.

haven't been on in a while mainly from not being home in the last 3 days it feels like. friday night picked up a Keg with rob roth (one of the guys i work with) and had a party at his friends house out at the pines. as one of the guys and i took off for a smoke run for everybody(i was the only one that was the soberest). some of the guys took a sparkler bomb and blow up a mail box. one of the neighbors complained and the thurston county sheriff came out. i got back to find 3 or 4 sqaud cars at the house so i drive right by. one of the cops followed us so we ducked in a house that was a friend of the person that rode with me until the coast was clear. saturday went to corey going away party it was a blast and sunday went to go see Dad <-by that i mean jimmy's dad and spent time out there with him. that was real fun. it's been so long since i've seen Big Jim. and thats about it....oh yeah, leaving for WARP TOUR in 4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been awhile since I wrote anything, all I do is work and work some more. Im tired of the whole work idea but thats life, I'll get by. That and Im getting some money out so I can move out because my older brother is driving me crazy. He's almost 22, had a job a few years ago(hasn't got one since). He's in college but that all he does, then sits at home or goes to his friends house. Most of the time I have to eat out because he/and parents eat the food I put my name on that I safe. And also fighting over the internet. he's home all day and i work all i ask is a few hours when i get home, luckly i have it tonight. so im going to move out, it's him or me hopefully me. oh yeah inspite of all this crap that's going on next friday..off for WARP TOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So last night I decided, I'm going to go back in the martial arts. I wish I didn't wait soooo long to get back in it. I asked myself why I even left the martial arts in the first place. Answer= my brother, we were in karate when I was 7 yrs old. At that age I looked up to him and wanted to do everything he did, so when he quit, I too quit. I regret it very much, the teaching that I would of learned, not to mention the decipline (mind+body). If I would of continued to stay in it I would of been some degree of black belt. So now I decided, Muy Tai kickboxing or Jeet Kune Do or Hapkido. I'm not sure which one I want to choose.

Summer is great, going to Warp Tour with a bunch of my friends and staying out there for 3 days and then going to Motly Crue concert. then going camping at the coast, what a great summer it's going to be!

Self determination, something that most of my friends don't know about me. It helps move me forward, to strive for better things. And because of my medical condition, I am bound to limitations or am I? At the age of eleven years old I was diagnose with Crohn's Disease. It genetic and not contagous. It's where my intestines won't absorb the nutients from food when I'm in a flare up. When I was eleven I lost 30 pounds in 3 weeks. To some that would be a dream but its very dangerous. I was very pale and small. It's non-curable and I've had it for about 9 years now, took a BUNCH of pill medication, went under the knife twice and had a foot-n-half removed. I never really talked about it until a few years ago. I thought my life was over, then something in me told me that you have to live. There will be many hardships in your life but you'll make it through them. I was and still today determined not to let this beat me, I won't allow it.

As I said before, I am bound to limitations. Meaning it was my life's dream to join the Army and be in the Special Forces, I mean my whole family was military; dad, grandpa, great grandfather, and so on. But because of this the military won't let me in. Limitations-I don't know the meaning of the word. I will not be stopped by this and so instead of the military, I am joining the police force. And so, I am now been in remission for 4 years now doing better than ever. I say this to you; there is no bound, no limit to what you can accomplish. If you have a dream go and seek it out, nothing is stopping you. If your light is dim then all you have to do is look in your heart, trust and believe in yourself, everything will work out.

So today I was working just minding my own business when one of my friends, Danelle, comes in laughing. That only meant one thing, what did my manager and her do. Well guess what, my manager Michelle took vaseline and covered both of my truck windows. not just a little bit but the whole thing, plus on my wipers blades. Now the pranks we play on each other are funny but that was just mean. So I filled up a 5 gallon bucket of water and planned to drench her in it, but she lucked out and was able to get back inside before the water splashed on the front door of burger king. She said it was payback. It all started when Danelle started marking my arm with markers and grease pens, so i splashed her with water then she soaked me. Everytime I'd try to get her back Michelle would yell at me to nock it off and let Danelle continue marking me and protecting her. I thought of a good way to get back at Danelle, I took the lubricate for the milk shake machine and applied it underneath all of her car doors. It worked, ha ha, what a great laugh. And so they started it, but now my truck is covered in vasline. Just wait until payback, i think im going to have to run to work which is a 8 mile run, but saturday i'll will have my vengence. Saturday, Michelle works and I don't so thats a good day to get her back, I have great plans pondering inside my head to get back at them both, just wait and see.